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Aloha.
So for some of you who have been reading my blogs. You know that I have and is still struggling with loosing weight. So I just want to go into more depth about my struggle.
Well I was always one of the bigger girls if not the biggest in my group of friends. But when it really got worst was my freshman year in high school. When I got my ma'i (period) for the first time. I have irregular bleeding from the start. Like I would bleed for more than a month and it was heavy the whole time, anyways im anemic. So the doctors and my mother decided to put me on birth control, so I was on BC for 8 years just to control my bleeding. That was when I started blowing up and I was active. I was a cheerleader and I paddled canoe. People told me that it would make me big and I said no, but looking back at it yes it did. But in my junior year my friend Tati and I would go exercising like I think everyday, go running around Lahaina. Plus my H.S. is not on a flat ground so there is hills and stairs everywhere, also we worked at the H.S. cleaning up the AG department and but doing that for a year and not even realizing it I lost a lot of weight. The lowest I got to was 160lbs mind you im 5"8. So for my senior year I stayed around in that weight, below 200. It wasn't until I got with my boyfriend at the time which is now my husband and went to college I started noticing I was gaining some weight not the freshman 15 because yes my friend Tati went to the same college at me, so we worked out everyday. But I only stayed in Hilo for one year because I got bored and it was expensive, so came home and went to UH MAUI for one year and got a job and that's when I blew up, because I work in a grocery store and I don't like to cook, so we would always go out and eat. So took me 3 years to get at the weight I am now which is 300 and its sooo uncomfortable I hate it but I love fried take out food. But I talked to myself and kicking myself in the ass. In order for me to provide a child for my husband and I, I have to lose a lot of weight because I have PCOS. So I have to put my all and mind into it. Im determined to get rid of all this unnecessary FAT. My husband and I cut out soda and is slowing down on our intake of rice. So im hoping that by this time next year I will be down one whole person. It wont be easy because I see people wih PCOS have a hard time loosing weight but I have seen people do it and then get prego. So I will do it for me so I can finally love myself, because I don't like what I look like now I don't even like looking in mirrors or going clothes shopping. That's my story, sort of.  MAHALO A HUI HOU!